So glad you’re here.
You’re in a great place. I’ve experienced a lot of support and feelings of freedom from interacting with people here.
It can be hard to verbalize the deep feelings of shame, regret, what ifs as you said, etc. to people who don’t have this addiction or don’t understand it as such (I know it’s hard for me to do that).
I know I’ve written a LOT in the past three weeks or so since I joined and it’s been really helpful to write out the deep emotional undercurrents going on when I get a craving, when I’m doing well and clean or when I’m feeling more trapped … because the emotions definitely register of being trapped and drawn further in etc.
Keep interacting and sharing, and make today gamble free 🙂
Much love and support <3