Thank you for posting on my thread. I hear you well.
We can all learn to enjoy life and recovery.
I remember hearing a speaker talk about city people buying expensive condominium and getting themselves into debt, stress and having to work a lifetime to repay that loan like a slave.
He return to his village and start building mud/clay/brick/straw houses. Today he has no debt but has many houses, he jokes that he need to decide everyday where he would stay for the night.
He enjoy the freedom, peace, joy and beauty that mother nature has given him.
He was a graduate just like those city people but choose to wear donated clothes and plant his own food.
He is self sufficient and even have enough food to give away.