[MurrS7]

I started this thread on nov 12 2018. Nearly
One year of self destruction. I refuse to make another year like the last one. It has been hell on earth with this evil illness. I am so determined to quit, but I’ve said this many times before. There is only so many times you can hit the ground and want to keep hitting it putting yourself through pain that becomes unbearable. I will not gamble today. Or tomorrow. Or the day after. God give me the strength