Wow I just stumbled across my thread. I cannot believe I went through this hell on earth for over 17 years on and off. Because that’s what active gambling addiction is. Hell on earth. I placed my last casino bet on sept 19/22 which is 9 months clean today. I placed my last sports bet on may 9 22 so 404 days clean there. What can I say now. Life is beautiful. The day I placed my last bet I also had my last drink so I have been booze/drug/gamble free for 9 months. I have gotten the date tattoo on my forearm so I am always reminded I made it out alive. Some days I didn’t want to wake up, some days I said I wish I could die if I have to live another day in active addiction. It really had such a strong grip on me and I still know I am never safe. I am only one drink or bet away from death. And that’s how I treat my recovery. It’s life or death now. Thank you to all who supported me, helped me, reached out to me, loved me, and was there for me in my darkest days. I love you all and I pray you are all
Keeping well. I attend 12 step meeting weekly now, maintenance therapy, and I have the most amazing girlfriend now who supports me in recovery and knows my story but still loves me the same. It is possible guys. I am testament you can get clean, even when the world is closing in and you feel hopeless. Just don’t give up. Love and peace to all❤️
