Dear diary
I gambled. I gambled like a complete out of control mad person. I am insane. I gambled for hours and hours and hours and hours. I used all the money i could get my hands on, i went completely stark raving mad. I feel sick. I feel like i never want to go outside again. Maybe i wont. Not unless i have to do something for someone else. I may become even more of a recluse than i am and just fade away into my eroding shell. I am dying inside. I feel there is no control over me stopping, i just cant do it. That is so sad, so sad that it is so bad within me. I can go and lose so much in such a short time. I cant bet higher i bet the maximum and just slam those buttons as hard as i can and i cant stop myself. It doesnt matter if i win. It doesnt matter if i lose, i just cant stop myself. I need to be locked away
Luna girl losing the fight today
