[SinusDD]

Thanks Jim,
I appreciate your encouraging words. It’s day 3 now. I keep reading other peoples diaries, and it kind of completes my own story a bit. I don’t know if I can do it but i really need to get my life under control again.

I did the maths yesterday and the amount and time I spent on gambling is just mindblowing. I spent years and a fortune, all in exchange for an illusion, lies and sadness. I just hope I can manage my emotions and feelings better in the future. It all seems easy as I am writing this, but the moment these thoughts kick in, they are so hard to stop. Sometimes impossible to stop.