6 months gamble free
Today I have reached the six month gamble-free milestone. It would be an understatement to say my life has changed. I am content and my mind is free. I woke up this morning and realised I had actually taken the time to put on tan last night - it’s been many years since tan was a priority for me. It’s a small but hugely significant change.
I value myself enough now not to waste time on negative people who drain me with put downs - I simply let them go - and I am finding lovely new and old friends are filling the space they leave behind. I seem to have a new attractiveness (and I’m not talking about looks) - I seem to attract such lovely positive people who genuinely like me for me.
I searched for an old thread and this was the first post I came across - contrast this to today when I am getting ready to head out for a meal which I booked and organised. I am putting posting it again just to remind me.
“One more day to go before payday.
I have got by and thanks to a mini miracle I actually am having quite a good end to the month.
I feel the usual sense of relief. I know in a day and a bit my month’s wages will be in the bank.
My mind is doing its monthly spend on silver sparkly curtains, good quality grey paint and of course the savings towards the new kitchen. This is a monthly “mind-spend” which never materialises. The first day I buy nice groceries and even some clothes - by the end of the first week I am back to the usual struggle and unworn clothes are returned.
I have a telephone appointment to discuss the residential programme. Now that’s it is payday and I have survived, recovery has lost its urgency. Residential treatment doesn’t seem so necessary. I feel I can do it alone.
I guess I have a bad infection of stinkin’.”