BACK IN THE SICK SICK SEA AFTER 3 YEARS I FEEL LIKE IM DEAD

I AM SICK I AM AFTER HAVING A BET BACK AFTER 3 YEARS . MY ESCORT ADDICTION AND MY JOB ENDED YESTERDAY. I WAS ASKED TO WORK NIGHTS AGAIN WHICH I HAD TO REFUSE A FTER THE TERROR OF LAST YEAR. I DIDENT OBEY THE GAMBLING PROGRAM THE STERPS NOW IM PUNISHED. I WILL RETURN TO GA NEW YEAR AND POST HERE SOON. I NEED HELP . I DIDENT ASK FOR THIS LIFE GOD HELP ME.Larmister