I've been in Ga and my partner in gamanon for past 7 years. heavy debt repayments finished in February of this year. My wife and ga friends think I'm clean for all this time but I'm not.
The financial side is fine ie no debts but each month I gamble within my allowance and raid the household kitty every so often when I run out of cash which is regularly. The stress of it is killing me and I feel I can't open up in my ga group because of the gamanon linkage. this has gone on for 5 of the 7 years!!!
Just been paid and have wonderful opportunity to stop this and nobody will know better. My marriage which is great these days but which was dodgy 7 years ago will be secured. I gamble with the life of my beautiful family each month, not just with my own allowance.
My lying and deceit fuels the addiction and writing this note is the first time I've told anyone. It feels good to confess, even though it's on the anonymous Internet.
Just for today I will not gamble and just for today I will not let money burn a hole in my pocket.