Day four without gambling. Getting really hard the urge is now hitting me. I am barrading myself in the house to stay away from everything that got me in this mess. I am very grateful for the support of all in my life. Without them, I don't think I will be here. I am going to get help to calm my nerves. The wait of what will happen with my work is also killing me. I had my first GA meeting today. All the people were very nice and welcome me with open arms and told me I am not the only one in this situation. I am meeting with my counslor on Tuesday for the first time. I am so nervous about the meeting. I am afraid to find out what is causing this horrible sickness in me. I have not been myself for the past 9 months. I have became a wonderful lier and cover everything up. I am not coming clean with all and feel some relief. I have alot of strentgh behing me to help. All I need to do is look at my eight year old son, and think what would he do without me. I hope someday he will understand and never never do this on his own. At least someday I will see how this problem started and hope I can pick up any type of addiction that comes my way.
Thanks for all the support of fellow gamblers on line. You are all great people and I hope that we can help each other out with this addiction. You have been very supportive to me and I appreciate it all. Keep up the hard work so we can live a happy and more fun lifeI want to have my life back