THE GAMBLING PERSONALITY AND OTHER ADDICTIONS

EXCUSE THE COMPLICATED HEADING AND I ALSO EXCUSE MY LACK OF POSTING. THE INTERNET CAFE WHERE I POSTED AS CLOSED AND MY OWN PC HAS INTERNET CONNECTION PROBLEMS. I AM NOW IN THE MIDDLE OF GETTING A HELPLINE FOR AN ADDICTION WITH MASSAGE PARLOURS OR ESCORTS AS THEY ARE KNOWN IN IRELAND WHICH I THNK HAS ALL RESULTED FROM MY GAMBLING DAYS HENCE THE ADDICTIVE PERSONALITY. WHEN I FIRST STOPPED GAMBLING IN 2005 AND 2006 I SUBSTITUTED BINGE DRINKING FOR THE GA AD HAD TO STOP THAT DUE TO HEALTH PROBLEMS. IN 2008 MY NEW CRAZE WAS SHOPPING WITH CREDIT CARDS MAINLY GOLF EQUIPMENT CLOTHED AND TRIPS I COULDENT AFFORD. THIS STOPPED WHEN THE BANK CONFISCATED THEM. THE LAST 2 YEARS TO MY SHAME I HAVE SPENT NEARLY 5 K IN THEESE PLACES. I THINK ITS THE BUZZ I GOT FROM SNEAKING AROUND AND PICKING A SEECTION FROM INTERNET. ALSO IN MY JOB I DONT GET OUT WEEKENDS TO SOCALIZE AND MEET PEOPLE AND I AM ALSO IN REGULAR BAD HEALTH IE FYBRO IBS ETC. I HAD NO IDEA I HAD SPENT SO MUCH
 UNTIL I DONE A CALCULATION. I ALSO FEEL SICK MENTALLY FROM THEESE PLACES . ITS NOW THAT I HAVE GAMBLING URGES TO TRRY AND GET BACK THE MONEY I SPENT. I HAVE 2 YEARS PAID OF MY GAMBLING LOAN BUT COULD HAVE PAID MORE OR HAVE A NICE SAVINGS ONLY FOR THIS DIRTY HABIT. I HAVENT ATTENDED GA IN A WHILE AND NO MY BEHAVIOUR WILL NOT LEAD TO A RECOVERY PROPER. I MIGHT NOT VISIT THE PLACES FOR A MONTH BUT LIKE A BET WHEN I GET IN IN TO MY HEAD THATS IT. I AM REALLY STRUGGLING WITH THE TWELVE STEPS. I MA STILL PART TIM E TAXIN AND CANT FOR THE LIFE OF ME GET A PROPER JOB. AS YOY CAN SEE WHIKE I HAVENT A BET IN A BOOKIES I AM STILL IN DESPERATE GAMBLING AND ADDICTIVE TROUBLE.
 Larmister