HOW CAN I GET MY MONEY BACK?
where do i start?
yes I'm a compulsive gambler , it lets me forget my life I don't want to live anymore. I get a high when i win and don't feel nothing when i spin my £125 spins a time and lose it all then the depression and despair sets in . I just want to sleep and never wake up.
I have borrowed thousands from family members , scammed people online to fund my addiction, I have even sucked cock. Just the once and i am completley disgusted with myself
I have a supportive partner and 3 children. I feel i have destroyed my family.
I have mental heath issues too, borderline personality disorder, manic depression, eating disorders ,bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. I take medication for it but when i get stressed it gets bad.
Recently i have self excluded myself from every online outlet.
Too look at me you wouldn't think there is anything wrong but underneath there is, I hide it and try and cope with normal everyday things.
I am lucky I have a partner who knows all this and wants to help. he is trying to get a psychiatrist to have one on one sessions with to do with my past when was was younger that effected me badly.
Saying all this ..I have read a lot of posts and i feel the same, we are all going through the same thing. It's hell and i wish there wasn't any gambling allowed online. I want to stop all these crooks!
In the meantime i and giving it up and it feels dull , i need stimulation of some kind so i must get back into my running and exercise and i am a perfectionist so i'm pretty tough on my self.
I would like to ask a question .. as i have serious mental health do i stand a chance of getting my recent deposits back?
Before i have self excluded and explained my mental health with cassava and they didn't close it so i kept doing it.
I wish i never got into this in the first place.
Want to say to everyone reading this , stay strong, don't give up . The best thing about life is that a new day comes and we can start again.