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    • #55005
      HelleHelle
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      Hello I dont even know where to start, I guess I am just confused and frustrated in myself. I managed to gamble all my student loan which i’ll need very soon when the bills arrive. I am 20 years of age studying medicine and I was new to casino gambling and somehow managed to get addicted which is very unlike me. I literally dont even have 10 bucks left in my account and right now it cant even go 2 hours before I break down in tears. I am devastated, ruined, shocked and a wreck. Not even my big brother knows and we are as close as someone gets. I just dont know what to do at this point, figured writing about it might help. My life were on a good path and I have pretty much ruined it just by messing with things I can not understand, not to mention dont need. At this point I cant even remember why I even started. Maybe I am hoping to get some guidance of some sort because I have no heart or courage to tell my family which will most likely found out very soon. What do I do? What can I possibly say that wont disappoint them after all the good they have done for me? What can I do when they are in no position to be able to help me from my horrible mistakes the past months? Life just seems pointless at this moment. Nothing I have ever stood for does.

    • #55007
      HelleHelle
      Participant

      I appericiate you’re kind and wise words. So far I’ve manage to calm down and after some reflection I will tell my brother. I just hope I haven’t ruined it already, guess only time will tell.

      Once again thank you and wish you all the best in the future. 

    • #55008
      velvet
      Moderator

      Hello Helle and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

      Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

      Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

      As well as the forums New Members are invited to join Charles in the New Members Practical Advice Group On Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK)

      And on that note….

      I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

      Take care

      The Gambling Therapy Team

      PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works!

    • #55009
      Palmsandsun
      Participant

      Hey !

      I think we have a lot in common. I am also a student (22) and also spend pretty much all my student loan on gambling. It’s a huge amount of money – I don’t even wanna know, but probably between 15-20k 🙁 It makes me feel horribly sick just writing that down.

      I only registered on this forum 8 days ago, and I haven’t gambled anymore since that time. I know I am an addict for more than a year already and told myself I would quit every month, but it never worked. I believe you can only win this addiction with full commitment and by fully admitting and understanding you have a big problem. And this is the time, we are both in our early 20’s. Our lifes are not wasted yet and we can change it. I am 100% sure about that. Yes it is a lot of money, but over the span of a lifetime it’s ok and we’ll be fine if we can stop now.

      I’m also afraid of telling my family/parents. But it is important you tell someone close to you. So I told my best friend I was addicted and that I will quit now. Someone NEEDS to know. I made an ultimatum for myself, if I fail this time I WILL tell my parents and seek professional help. Because I am so dedicated right now that I believe I can do it. However, if I fail I will have to face the consequences.

      What helped me so far:
      – Made a video for myself every few days, talking the reasons why I want to stop, how I feel and motivate myself to continue. This makes it feel more real with me, it’s like a diary.

      – Post progress here every few days. I now know that it is insanely important to stay active beating your addiction. That means posting progress here every few days and staying in contact. Always be reminded of that you are on a mission to quit. Never let your guard down.

      – Downlaoded Gamban. I have tried several gambling IP blockers (betblocker, GGG) and at first it worked. But after a few weeks I always knew how to get around it. Gamban is also an ip blocker which costs just +-2$ a month and even after uninstalling/clearing IP list it stilll blocks you from all gambling sites! I would recommend it, it’s a very usefull tool

      – Every morning I look in the mirror and say to myself: I WILL NOT GAMBLE TODAY! And repeat that a few times. It looks silly, but it reminds you of your goal.

      That is what I am doing so far and it is helping me.
      You just have to realise it is impossible to quit gambling if you don’t put the 100% effort in it and think that you’ll be able to quit quite easily. Because you can’t. From my own experiences, after losing a lot of money in one day I also got a gambling hangover. I got sick, felt guilty, cried etc. I have had this many times and EVERYTIME I told myself I would quit, that this was the last time.

      It was never the case.. it continued like that for over a year and this hast cost me thousands and thousands of euro’s. I never took the time to go to this forum, never made videos for myselfs and never showed real deddication. If you don’t do that you will always end up losing again when the hangover is over. It’s just how addiction works.

      Sorry for the long message. I hope you can do something with it. If you want we can write each other our progress every few days and motivate each other to continue quitting. We’re both studying, both addicted but I think with help of others it is possible to turn your life around.

      Again, it’s not too late.

      I wish you well!

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