I reached bottom.
First of all, hello to everyone,
i m new on this web page. I just want to share my story and see if there is hope for me.
I started gambling in elementary school when i was 13 by betting on sports, very soon i have started to gamble on old video poker machines with my friends.
I felt accepted during gambling because they were supporting and cheering me otherwise times before when they were molesting me. I see big thing in that fact about my adiction.
I were gambling drunk and sometimes druged, possibly that also increased my adiction levels. Soon after high school i find job. Gambling every day from 2500 (300 eur) hrk to -2500 hrk.
When i werent having money mom were helping me with small amounts. I would just spend it on slots or video poker. Gambling destroy my two attempts of finishing faculty.
2016 i stoped gambling for a year and i saved nice amount of money. Later i get job in kitchen. First year i didnt gamble, maybe rearly some lottery ticket or sports prediction ticket.
But second season (2018) some of my coworkers started speaking how they gamble and i decided to start again. I lost big part of my savings, sometimes i were stealing from my own mother.
Now i m in debt 600 euros. I m waiting for salary and hoping that something will excess and will be enough when i cover debt for whole month. I m thinking about suicide or mental hospital when i work out 7. month.
I just cant stop gambling. I get out casino to atm about 7 times in 2 hours and spend 100-200 euros wich is daily limit. Only good thing its i m hardworking worker and i love to work but it just doesnt have sense if
give everything to casino.I just want to say is FORBID GAMBLING. No one gambles once. Gambling destroying lives and families. Gambling causing suicides.
I think that only could help me in this fucked up situation and i dont know what authorities in my country wait, Austria and Albania did that.
Hope that I werent boring, thanks for reading.