Letting go is so hard. Being at peace with things that are not going your way has always been a personal struggle for me. For example, I am growing a garden, and my tomato plants that I have put many hours of work into are suddenly all dying. My first inclination is to say “screw gardening, I’m done with this crap!”

I feel it on an emotional level, like something has been stolen from me. It hurts. Yes, this may be a silly example, but it applies to all kinds of situations in life. It’s not fair after all of that work that I have put in to have a complete failure. Fairness in life is fickle. Sometimes it seems everything works out or balances out, and other times it seems so completely out of whack.

Acceptance is key. I accept that things will be great sometimes and crappy other times. I need to keep reminding myself.

I saw a good TED video today on being curious and mindful when stress causes bad habit urges. Reflect on what I am actually feeling as the situation unfolds. This can help me reprogram my mind.

http://www.ted.com/playlists/353/talks_to_help_practice_patienc?utm_campaign=social&utm_medium=referral&utm_source=t.co&utm_content=playlist&utm_term=social-science

Not sure if it’s ok to post this or not, hope I am not breaking a rule.

No gambling since 2/17/15 for me, that is 16 months today!