Never thought I'd let it slip this far...
This is my first time using a platform like this. I have never told anyone what I'm about to type on here...I have been "managing" an addiction to sports betting for about 20 years.
I have never got to the point where I lost my place or couldn't pay the bills. I now have about 1000 dollars left on my line of credit and thankfully a small limit credit card to hopefully tide me over until
I get my shit together. I made an attempt to hang myself a couple weeks ago, but was able to get out of it with minor bruising of my throat. I am halfway through school and not working full
time which has been hard on its own. I honestly don't know if I can continue schooling as I now may have to work full time to get myself out of this mess. I've suffered through depression
my entire young adult life. I have suicidal thoughts pretty much daily. I can't believe I've let it come to this...I'm absolutely exhausted from the constant stress this behavior causes.
This disease has got me pinned in a corner and I don't know what to do...