I feel really stupid comming back here only cause i should of stayed here.  i have been gambling for 20 years or so.  The last 10 really bad.  I have come to the conclusion numerous times that i am a compulsive gambler and had every intention of quiting.  i wish i would of followed through the first time, the second time, the thrid…  My life would be so diffrent.  Well as usual i can’t go back.  I have to get back up and start this fight all over.  I hope this is the fight of a lifetime and some good will someday come from all this bad.  Life doesn’t have to be this hard.  What i can’t understand is "Why me?" I could have the world by the ass.  instead i have nothing.  Has anyone lost everything over and over again and than finally got it right?  What i mean is go to ga quit go back quit go back years apart?  Im afraid of falling because i don’t want to waste anymore of my life in this nighmare. It only gets worse.