Resisting online gambling when you live alone and your loneliness drives you to gambling
I am new here and this is my first post. I am writing, because I am fresh out of a long-term relationship, because my ex partner thought that I would never change and, because I did not trust him enough to call him when I had an urge to gamble. Are some of you in stuck in the same situation where you do not live with your significant other and run into those impulses and give in without reaching out?
I am certainly guilty of this. I numb my pain, stress and loneliness in gambling fully knowing the impact of my gambling financially and relationship wise. It is not that I do not love my partner or don't trust him. I just give in. He seems to think that I do not trust him enough...hence one of the reasons why he left me. Is the urge to place a bet more important than your relationship? Surely not...but in that moment of impulse, I do not always think of the consequences of my actions. The soothing part of placing the bet, the numbing of my pain, stress, and fears, and the excitement of the hope to win are the driving force behind my actions.
I have had my gambling issues for a long time now and it has brought me and my loved ones nothing but pain. I am currently reading a lot of self-help books (how to love yourself, The power of Now, a book about women who have gambling issues,) I am seeing a counselor to deal with the pain of the breakup and also to deal with whatever emotions or experiences that led me to gamble and keep me there. I have registered to the site Smart Recovery and did some of there exercises to change negative and destructive behaviors such as gambling and replacing them with positive and more rewarding behaviors.
I am really trying hard to change my belief system and deal with my emotions in a more positive way. I also reach out to friends and family. This is another new beginning for me, but this time...I really hope that I have the strength to take real action on my words and carry them through and I hope that all of you who are here to seek help do to!