I took my Mom to her cardiologist appointment this afternoon and she is doing well. He wants to see her in 3 months. She can resume all activities in moderation in 2 weeks. I am not spending the nights with her anymore as she is getting around fine. If she needs anything done that she is unable to do, I do them during the day. Honestly, I am tired both physically and mentally. It is good to sleep in my own bed and be in my house. Tomorrow I have a plumber coming to replace a outside spigot that is leaking. Always something! I feel a little disconnected right now! I really feel like something is missing from my life. I need to figure out what! This week is busy with appointments but next week I am going back to the gym. I really miss it. I have had a few urges to gamble but I think it is because of my coping skills. I want to escape instead of dealing with my feelings. Today I thought a lot about my Husband. I sure do miss him. Sometimes you don’t realize what you had till it’s gone. I was very fortunate to have him in my life and I know that he knew how important he was to me. Some days are just a little harder than others.
