Just wanted to say hope you are being kind to yourself and taking little steps to help get through the thousand thoughts going through your mind. You know how much you have put in over the years to build a life for yourself and your family and that is still there. I won’t say more as I don’t want to presume anything, but I do know how much you give to people here so give to yourself too.
I also will let you know I have an appointment tomorrow to organise self exclusion and counselling as well if I want. I’m actually looking forward to it. Thanks for your support.