[chahed123]

Hi everyone
I hope you are all well.yesterday was my birthday I’m51yrs old and feeling relieved that it’s been10day’s since i last gambled.it doesn’t change much for me unfortunately because l usually lose all my money in the first2 3day’s of pay day then go with out for the rest of the month.lt has been a nightmare of a cycle doing the same mistake as always every month is the same not realising that it’s my wife and children that are suffering with me what a fool l have been.l did manage to stop gambling for10yrs out of30yrs life was beautiful and then l relapsed life was terrible again.
I love my children as they are the innocent one’s in all this l am crying inside in how l have hurt them l promise by making this step to recovery that daddy can get better.
God willing God bless us all.

[G Rec]

Hi chahed123.

Welcome to the forum, and well done on taking a positive step.

There is a new members group on tonight at 21:00(Uk time), I would strongly recommend attending that where you can get some great tips and advice on initial steps to take to help with your recovery. I know that I found it extremly useful when I first started posting.

[chahed123]

Hi GRec l hope you are well.
Thankyou for the advice l did log into the new members group and it was really good as if l am connected to like minded people it gets easier.things are really tough right now in my life but l know that l have made the best decision to find help reading and listening to so many people’s stories is a big help physiologically using all the tips are very helpful as a lot of people have been there for a long time so l except that l need help and l am grateful.
Thankyou.

[Zero no hero]

Hey dude I feel your pain believe me. I am in the same situation with regards to the family situation the wife the kids etc. I read a lot of stories about single guys and girls who lose like the rest of us but somehow I think at least they are only hurting themselves more or less, ok there may be partners or Mam and Dad etc but it’s so much worse when you damage your kids as far as I am concerned. That guilt… there is nothing like it. I think of all the cash I have wasted over the past 15 yrs, cash that could have given my now grown daughter and son some family holidays for example but no that didn’t happen. Most we ever got was an odd weekend in some other part of the country not a 2 week spanish holiday like all their school mates got. Why well because I gambled away those dreams. The end result is my son is in his mid 20s now and my daughter is 19 and I have no relationship with either of them. I am still with my wife don.t ask me how she is an angel. But ain’t it so sad? My house is in deep debt and even though we are not in negative equity it will eventually be repossessed no doubt as we cannot afford the repayments. I only do sports betting so no casino or card games. I actually used to sneer at people losing their money that way , I mean at least I know my sport! Oh sure but it always ends the same way ALWAYS. You start again fresh careful staking, patient disciplined, you win slowly but consistently for a week maybe two or three, you think you cracked it then one little thing goes wrong, a team concedes a goal last minute ,a tennis player retires or whatever , you feel cheated, YOU PLACE A BET IN ANGER, then the red mist descends… you lose it all yet again and now you convince yourself that next time you will handle it better, but of course you are deluded. The remorse I feel about not being able to leave my kids an inheritance when I die. Nothing. The mark of a man as far as I am concerned is to be able to see his kids right when he is dead, I am not that man. I am not a man at all. Yea as I say dude I hear ya, hope you hear me too, we gotta stop this before it’s too late…even if in many ways it is too late we still gotta stop and try to do some kind of damage limitation.

[chahed123]

Zero no hero
I hear your pain bro Thankyou for replying.yes you are right it’s been too long we do need to fix up l am so pleased you are still with your wife she is a Angel as for the kids l understand there resentment it is tough on them because we and are addicts.l stopped for years and life was good my emotional state changed when l started gambling l became a different person angry anxious and depressed.gambling is the most evil thing on the planet.l wish us all a speedy recovery.
No more mate we owe it to ourselves and our families.
All the best Chahed.

[G Rec]

Hi chahed123.

Glad to hear that you attended the New Member’s group and found it useful.

I look forward to following your updats on how things are going

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