Hi Monica I have read your posts for the last 5 years which have helped me greatly overcome this addiction that plagues all of us that are here reading these posts. Trying to find a win beyond just getting back to evens but actually going ahead and staying ahead without putting it all back in and more. It’s been over 5 years for me clean but nearly 20 before that to get there and rock bottom of course to find my way out. I moved abroad and I have a career a wife a son and savings. I get urges to go back to it but when I do I think of this forum and what it means to keep fighting to persevere to endure and to get through it. It wasn’t our battle to choose if I am honest the internet made it all too easy and the government sat and watched the Pennie’s come in. I guess us gamblers always have an excuse and someone to blame. Maybe I would have done the same in the bookies but just not as quickly who knows. Anyway the way you write what you have shared and your recovery changed my life and as I see you now have health issues I wish you all the very best for your treatments and stay strong – you have many supporters here and we are grateful for you sharing your journey – you mattered and you helped people like me so much . I am sorry to jump in but I thought it was finally time to say thankyou – and to all that share their journeys with this addiction too easily offered to us under UK law. Good luck to all you will win more without the dopamine kicks – just give yourself a chance to not have to win it all twice and just earn it and appreciate it – you won already by working hard for it you don’t need to flush it three times to make sure its real. It is real and cherish it it’s enough. Good luck all.
