Hi daddy23, well done on looking for help. Firstly I need to apologise, it shouldn’t have taken this long to approve your first post here.
Well done on blocking your online accounts. If you can then it would help to be honest with your partner, she could help with one of the other barriers you will reaad about here – accountability.
Read the other stories here, you will see a lot that you will relate to, you will also see the success stories and apply the thiogns that are working for others to your own situation.
Using support is important and there is a lot of it available therse dayys – here we have these forums, live groups and a one to one helpline. Elsewhere as well. Keep posting and hopefully I will see you in a group soon.