Hey dark energy I just read a few of your posts and wow it sounded so much like what I wrote about myself or feel sometimes. I to am in my mid thirties and at times feel like I’ve wasted my life sometimes. One thing I wanted to say is that I’ve been in recovery from other addictions for 10 years the majority of people ive met in NA or AA didn’t get there shit together till they were in there late 30s to early 40s. Most of them now have families and great lives which just started a bit later. There really is no time limit for when the whole kid and marriage and big goals in life happen. I definitely understand the lonliness factor its tough I’ve never been single till up to till a month and a bit ago and it sucks but it’s also refreshing because it’s hard losing yourself to the wrong person. Without fixing ourselves first we will always attract chaos it just goes hand in hand with addiction and unresolved trauma. I’m happy to read that your back on the recovery train and trying. You dont give up that’s the main thing. It takes alot of work to stay away from addiction especially gambling. Wishing you lots of strength through your journey.
