Thanks kin it definitely hasn’t been easy for me. I’m sorry to hear your mom’s struggling I was a careaid for 10 years looking after mostly elderly like that. Plus the care I did with my uncle and grandma its tough to watch that’s for sure. Just remeber to have caregiver time off or respite it’s called it’s important for your own mental health.
I had a rough day yesterday evening as my ex has now started trying to come after my money. I felt absolutely betrayed it turns out he was a gold digger looking to try and clean me out. I guess gambling ended up saving me from his antics which is messed up to say. That money I lost he was planning on taking when I bought a house with his name on the title. He didn’t have any money to put down. My stepmom tried to warn me last year he was showing signs of being after my money but neither of us were sure. He put on a good act. But he blantly wrote me telling me he needs my money and I owe him and blah blah blah. I already gave him money when I sold my house since he helped me repair it ect. I felt completely blind sided yesterday. I spend 7 years with a liar. Maybe he wasn’t at first until he hit his head but I dont actually no. I asked him several times if he was after my money the last few months and he denied it. But now that we completely cut ties he’s dead broke and his desperation is trying to come after me. I’m not gonna let him break me. I had some dark thoughts not about gambling or anything of that sort just flashbacks to my party days. I guess that betrayal just struck my last trust nerve in humans I had left. I’m definitely completely broken hearted and feel like my life’s been one big piece of shit after another but I’m not going fall flat on my face for this crap. I’m stronger than that and I will get through this rough patch. There is no way I’m going backwards for a man that’s for sure. I lost who i was once I’m not going to do it again.