I could not read the bible after doing it for 6 months. I could not do it for 4 months in my previous employment. I was too worried, stressed, fearful, and anxious by the job. I lost that job in the end, and I still could not read the bible for 1 month before I start the current one. I was too worried, stressed, fearful, and anxious after I lost my employment and income.
My new job offered me a lot of personal, quiet, peaceful, calm time with little or no distraction to continue reading from where I last stop. I feel very happy and grateful for this newly found time and opportunity to heal my wound and recover.
And I would not be able to understand and relate to many things I read if I had not experienced all the curve balls thrown at me in life.
I will continue my recovery from where I stop last time.
Isaiah 31:1 King James Version (KJV)
“Woe to them that go down to Egypt for help; and stay on horses, and trust in chariots, because they are many; and in horsemen, because they are very strong; but they look not unto the Holy One of Israel, neither seek the LORD!”
Deuteronomy 17:16 New International Version
16 The king, moreover, must not acquire great numbers of horses for himself or make the people return to Egypt to get more of them, for the Lord has told you, “You are not to go back that way again.”
My problem
I did not seek God first; I trust myself more, I listen to me, and I seek my ways.
I admit that my ways are wrong.
my ways had made my life unmanageable.
my ways did not work.
I need to seek a Higher Power and way first.
I need to trust a Higher Power and way.
I believe that a Higher Power and way can change me and restore me to a normal way of thinking and living.
My ways did not work.
I change and give up my way.
I follow a new way.
If I need help, I must not go back to Egypt, I must not go that way.
If I am depressed, I must not take alcohol, I must not go that way.
If I feel helpless, discourage, and hopeless, I must not gamble, I must not go that way.
If I feel frustrated, disappointed, impatient, I must not gamble, I must not go that way.
If I need money, I must not gamble, I must not go that way.
If I am bored and lonely, I must not use the slot machine, I must not go that way.
When I face a bigger and stronger enemy –
some situations, some thing, some place, some person I cannot change.
When I have heavy responsibilities, fall sick, huge debt, lost my job and income, face difficult people.
When I am worried, stressed, fearful, and anxious,
I must not gamble.
I need to work hard today to protect and keep my recovery.
It was just too easy to take for granted and feel a stupid false sense of security and safety.
When I become complacent.
When my guard is down.
When I am not alert.
When I become lazy and careless.
When I do not pay attention.
I can so easily slip and lose everything.
- This reply was modified 1 year, 9 months ago by notyoung56.