What are the enemy bigger and stronger mentally, emotionally, physically, financially and spiritually than me that I am facing right now?
I read in the bible…
As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another. Proverbs 27:17
Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working. James 5:16
I read in the 12 steps of Gamblers Anonymous…
Step 4 – Made a searching and fearless moral and financial inventory of ourselves.
Step 5 – Admitted to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
In Step 4, you are challenged emotionally with the prospect of confronting the fear and pain that comes with taking a moral and financial inventory.
In the 4th Step, you undergo the painful process of facing and confronting your wrongs.
Often called the “confession” step, Step 5 “admit to a Higher Power, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrong.”
Step 5 is where the recovery turns from taking stock of the past to start building a new, healthier future.
In the 5th Step, you sit down with one or more other people and confess everything to get it all out in the open.
I need to work harder today to protect and keep my recovery. I love my recovery in the month of January.
When I become complacent; when my guard is down, when I am not paying attention. I can so easily slip and lose my recovery in the month of February.
What have I been doing that has help me in the past but have not been doing lately or could have done better?
Gambling Therapy has been a great help, this site allows me to process my thought and journal on the subject.
My problem
I have become less discipline lately; I have started eating before I sleep, it is making me lazy and tired and causing me difficulty to fall asleep and wake up on time. I am beginning to act out for quick relief and escape from suffering, stress and anxiety.
It would be so pointless and fruitless for me to lose everything I have in the process of chasing after something I do not have.
It was so tempting to be lazy and stop the good work and habit I started doing in January. They say the best advice was the one I do not want to listen and do. I did not stay up and active before I sleep in most part of January, I give up surfing internet when it was time to sleep. I drank water if I feel like eating before I sleep, I choose to eat after I wake up.
I remember reading…
“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. Mathew 16:24
“Father, if you are willing, please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not me.” Luke 22:42
“Truly, truly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of his own accord, but only what he sees the Father doing. For whatever the Father does, that the Son does likewise. John 5:19
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