As hard as I try, January was a good month but not a perfect month for me.
Towards the end when life got better. I became over-confident and relax.
I stop putting in more effort and hard work.
I was becoming complacent; my guard was down.
I stop paying attention to little things.
I stop doing my best to protect my recovery.
No one is watching – I have freedom – I can do anything I like.
I cannot resist eating at the wrong time,
I cannot resist staying active when I should be sleeping and resting.
The temptation was strong.
Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.
Mathew 26:41
My old ways are wrong, they are self-destructive and a bad habit.
It was easy to be lazy, I just stop putting in effort and hard work.
Some says the first day was not easy.
The first day after I return to healthy way,
and stop eating at the wrong time, and sleeping on time,
I receive the biggest shock.
I woke up late for work the next day.
The thing I fear most happen,
it was not supposed to end up this way.
It affected my confident and emotions very badly.
I can plan, but it did not work out according to my plan.
Am I going to give up and stop doing the right thing?
Am I going to continue to do the right thing unconditionally regardless of the outcome?
I need to put in more effort and hard work to protect my recovery.
I need to be more careful. I need to check and double check.
I need a Higher Power and Way to help me do the thing I cannot do.
2 good days has passed since I woke up late for work in February.
One day at a time
I need to “Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation.”
- This reply was modified 1 year, 7 months ago by notyoung56.
- This reply was modified 1 year, 7 months ago by notyoung56.
- This reply was modified 1 year, 7 months ago by notyoung56.
- This reply was modified 1 year, 7 months ago by notyoung56.
- This reply was modified 1 year, 7 months ago by notyoung56.
- This reply was modified 1 year, 7 months ago by notyoung56.