To this day I still have periods of anger at myself for what I did. I’ve worked tremendously on trying to forgive myself for the damage that was done. I no I’ve improved alot I have better relationships with people and healthy boundaries. I manage my finances better. I honeslty have not once though about gambling or even wanted to since I decided to quit. My problem with the addictions I’ve had through my life were like many strictly trying to soothe the mental pain I had going on between my ears. I’m not perfect I still have days where my traumas get triggered or I feel emotionally unstable at times. But I manage those days better. I haven’t used anything mind numbing or substance related for along time. I’m taking my 11 years from being substance free and I’m now a year and a bit from gambling. I even cut out sugar and coffee. Once I go all in to be healthy that becomes my obsession. I will always have this drive or focus to do something to the extreme so if that’s being the best version of myself than that’s where I put my energy. Nice to read the stories of how people are doing. Wish everyone a great day and postive recovery.
