Hi IKICDB
I wouldn’t dream of telling you that you ‘need to rectify your personal situations’ – there are no easy answers, no magic bullets and I do not own a crystal ball.
You have done really well writing your first post. ‘You’ made the decision to open up here; it could not have been easy and yet you managed it and found it therapeutic.
I understand ‘losing oneself’ whilst trying to keep others happy; it’s an easy situation to fall into and difficult to rise against but you have acknowledged that you know that you can do it, which is a fantastic rallying cry. You know you can take ‘your’ life back under ‘your’ control and now I know it too.
You are not to blame for wanting to escape. You didn’t ask for, or want, the problems you are experiencing. I’m so sorry you feel there is a stigma attached to the way you feel and I do urge you to share your feelings with your dogs who will never judge but just love you for who you are.
I’m going to leave it there for now. I just wanted you to know that there are people listening who want to support you as you gather that ‘tremendous amount of will power and strength’ to change you life. It will take time but just for today you have taken a big step so once again – well done.
Velvet