Yoyo,
I have to admit until your words of “Hope this could be the last time” turn into “this WILL be the last time” you (most likely) will continue to relapse. I’m not saying I have it all figured out because I don’t but “hope” allows for a landing pad when you fail, “will” doesn’t. Don’t give yourself that out of gambling because you only “hope” to get better. Either you are going to stop gambling or you are not; and that is not done through “hope” it’s done through “doing” or this “will” be my last bet. I believe a change in mindset would help tremendously. You are at the right place, hope to hear from you soon.
Be well.
Craig