Everything has return to normal for me now but yesterday was not.
Everything was OK but I did not feel OK.
I had this problem for many years but only getting familiar recently.
I am beginning to recognize the problem.
Nothing was wrong yesterday but I was feeling depress.
I have not gamble so I am not facing the problem that gambling gives me.
I have not gamble so I am facing the problem that has led me to gamble.
On the surface, it looks like a gambling problem but at the bottom, it was depression.
Depression made me feel very helpless and hopeless, I was feeling unhappy, pressurize and stressed. It was very dark.
I thought my bad days was over but never expected another one yesterday. My stress and trigger came one after another, wave after wave. I ended up feeling depress on the last day.
If the stress from my eczema and exhaustion did not make me relapse, the depression definitely will do the job every single time in the past because I wanted the pain, hardship and suffering to go away immediately. I would turn to compulsive eating, drinking, doctor prescribe drug, sex and gambling for good feeling.
I tell myself to stay focus on the job, I was at my working place for many hours, it has keep me occupied so I did not gamble yesterday.
- This reply was modified 10 months ago by kin.