I am not a medical professional or addiction counsellor so I do not know what hit me and why it happened when it happens to me.
I was a compulsive gambler. I have struggle with the same problem for more than 30 years.
I will try to describe what happen to me. I was usually gamble free for a period of 6 months to a year. One day, I just simply failed and cannot resist a temptation, an urge, or an impulse to gamble after many gamble-free days.
I suddenly decide to gamble on that day. I was impulsive when I decide to go ahead with the first bet because I did not consider the harmful consequences and heavy price of gambling.
I did not believe it will happen to me. I forget how this enemy has destroyed me many times and caused me great pain and suffering.
My mind tells me one more time; I know what I am doing.
I can control myself; I will not gamble uncontrollably.
I did not believe I will get into trouble after getting into trouble so many times.
The uncontrollable and irresistible urge or compulsion to carry on gambling only happen to me after a period of continue gambling.
It was progressive. At some point, I suddenly cannot stop gambling and gamble compulsively.
First bet, Next bet, Last bet, One more time, each has destroyed me and send me into a very dark place.
Today I try to keep my problem manageable and under control by staying gamble free.
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