I was able to sleep for 8 hours. I felt so good after the rest, I have recovered my energy.
I was very grateful for this recovery. It is simply priceless.
I was so vulnerable and weak when I am stress, exhausted and tired.
I can get triggered and have gambling thought during moment like these.
I do not need to gamble but I have become very impulsive.
After all the gamble free days, the mind suddenly wanted to go ahead to place the first bet.
It was totally unexpected, the mind wanted to end all the gamble free days with the first bet.
The mind wanted to end my abstinence in recovery.
I prayed before I sleep.
Psalm 23:1
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
When my unwell mind wanted more
I need to tell my unwell mind that Jesus Christ is enough for me.
I am thankful, Lord.
I feel better after the sleep.
Yesterday has passed, I stayed gamble free.
Today has arrived, I do the same.
I only need to stay gamble free today.
One day at a time.
Dear God, please grant me the serenity to stop beating myself up for not doing things perfectly, the courage to forgive myself because I am working on getting better, and the wisdom to know that you already love me, just the way I am. Amen.
- This reply was modified 8 months, 2 weeks ago by kin.