Today was my rest day. I am back to my normal routine of resting and sleeping to recharged and restored my energy. In between my sleep, I do my journaling.
Journaling has played a big part in my recovery. When I write about my feeling to gamble, or anything, it has help me to contain my strong emotions and kept it in the journal and nothing more, I do not need to act out the actual gambling or thought.
Journaling has stopped my instant gratification or desire to seek pleasure and fulfilment immediately without delay. Journaling has help me make thoughtful decisions, regulate my emotions, stay focused, and persist in the face of obstacles; sticking to the plan all the way to the end.
I was like a runaway truck on the highway with no brakes in the past when triggered and journaling was a good way to calm me down if something is irritating me and making me anxious, it helps me to slow down, refocus and reset my thought process instead of reacting and behaving impulsively.
Journaling has help me to see that my big fear and worry did not come true, they are not real. I do not need to panic, I do not need to gamble.