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Everyday the tug of war was between staying gamble free today vs placing the first bet.

How important is staying gamble free today?
Is it everything for me to keep the spiritual principles
Is it worth it to win the money and lose my values.

How important is winning this one bet for me today?
What is the point of winning one bet and losing my soul
Is it worth it to win the money and lose the most important thing in my life.

What is the most important thing in my life?
What is my purpose in life now?

This brings me to look at something bigger than me in life, something greater, more powerful and more important than me.