Today I had a very impressive experience..
I was done with the therapist appointment and stood outside on the street in front of building, a woman was playing on a keyboard on the street, a very emotional song.
I recognized that the Restaurant where I was working when my gambling addiction started, is just a few feet away from my therapist. There was my first contact with a slotmachine. My chef at that time placed the machine in the bar area, and I watched a few times people loosing their money and sometimes they won some money. Till the day I tried it to. I had 15€ left for the month and I thought- I will try it. I won 500€ with just 25cent per bet. It was the maximum you could get for 25cent.
I jumped through the restaurant cause of the big win. The next day I went to an other casino, played with 30€ an won again 800€. That was the beginning of an very dramatic period in my life.
Today standing outside and remembering that location and all these years till now, was very impressive. It felt like a circle has completed..
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