When life starts to become comfortable. I start to become careless and lazy, I start to become lenient on myself.
I will start to allow myself to do things that I will not normally do if I was strict with myself.
When I am not mindful, I will slowly lose focus.
I will stop what I am doing in recovery.
I will slowly allow my old ways and habit to creep in quietly.
I start by looking into areas that I should not be looking at…
1. I will check how much money I have before the match.
2. I will check the betting fixtures or match.
3. I will look at the odds.
4. I will make predictions base on my past experiences.
5. I will watch the football matches.
6. I will check the results.
1. I will enter the slot machines clubhouse in my free times.
2. I will watch other people play slot machines.
1. I like to check and think about whether I can go to a casino due to restrictions like my working days; casino ban; financial reasons.
2. Whether I have the free time or off days to do it.
3. Which casino can I visit.
4. How much money can I used for gambling.
5. I will enter the casino.
6. I will watch other people gambling.
1. I will check how much I can afford to lose on lottery tickets.
2. how much I can afford to risk on a horse race.
1. I will watch youtube and tiktok video on people playing poker or slot machines.
I dare not do such things in my early gamble free days because I was very mindful and fearful that I will fall into temptations and traps. These are activities that can lead me to gamble again.
Before I gamble: I normally think that I know what I am doing; everything is under control; I can be more careful; I can resist them; I have the strength and power to say “no” to gambling but I soon found out the truth the hard way, the answer is not “No”, the answer is “Not Yet.”
This is the biggest lie and loophole that I can keep in my recovery.
- This reply was modified 7 months ago by kin.