I’m back again, as I read through my prior journals, and realized. I need to be here, I need to attend GA meetings online when I feel alone. I wrote a journal entry in Oct 2022, feeling lost and alone, and as if I will never get out of this space. Alot has happened since then, I relapsed a couple of times in between, but I also managed to stay gamble free for free for up to 3 months. I had my last big relapse 25 January 2023, and from there 2 small relapses, yesterday was my final day. I read through the past Journals this morning, and realized, if I stopped trading then, I would have been so far by now. At that moment it just feels as if you are never getting out of this space. Today I realized, you will get out of that space, it takes time, practise and patiance, I feel so silly right now reading back to my past Journals. This time I am going to do it for real, I truelly feel that this time, I can pull through, and I need to stick to my plan, posting journals and joining GA meetings, whenever I feel like trading/gambling. Come on you SON OF GUN!! You’ve got this!! And to anybody struggling with this today, it will get better, you just have to make it work.
