Today I focus on the problem that has cause me to gamble.
If I think that I am not greedy, then I should really consider whether I still enjoy doing those activity if there were no real money involved.
I would not be interested in the slot machine, casino table card game, roulette, lottery and horse racing if no real money was involved.
But I still loves watching sports for its entertainment if no real money is involved but there is no more enjoyment and entertainment for me once I become tired. I will not be interested.
However, when real money was involved, I can gamble on sports for many hours even when I am tired. “The love of money is the root of all kinds of evil” due to greed.
How many times have I gamble after I experience financial hardship and job insecurity, relationship and family problem, dissatisfaction and discontentment with my life and greed for more money.
I have actually gamble to find escape and relief from the real world; escape from the painful reality that I am broke, insecure, lonely, and miserable.
Sport punting gave me false hope of success, happy feeling and quick fix to settle financial tight spots.
Today I do not want to live in denial. It was true and I never forget that I have make many winning bets but I still lost all the money in the end; it was also true I have lost more money than I win in sports.
Now I have begun to stop listening and following what my head tells me to do but I still need to be watchful – Once I cannot find the strength to resist, I will not be able to stop myself from doing something I should not be doing. I need to be stronger than my strongest excuse.
The physical barriers have stop me from gambling at the moment. It has not stopped the intention, motive and plan to gamble in my mind.
I have stop slot machine and alcohol successfully. If quitting sports punting is exactly the same, I would need to stay stop for a longer period of time before I can achieve the same.
I am still a work in progress and under construction.
- This reply was modified 6 months, 3 weeks ago by kin.