What was my first 24 hours after placing the first bet like?
I have difficulty sleeping despite putting in effort and trying hard. My brain is wide awake. I tried lying down on the bed for a long time, I wanted to recharge and restore my energy with sleep but I could not.
When it was time, I went to work and by the time I finish work and came home, I have not slept for more than 24 hours.
This would not have happened if I did not place the first bet.
I regretted placing my first bet regardless of the result.
Because once I start, I will feel uneasy when I had to stop and stay stop.
It was like something inside my brain change.
I took a moment to stare into the air, instead of feeling peace and calm, my head feel heavy like a hangover.
My second 24 hours, I slept like a baby and woke up feeling very normal.
I can feel peace, calm, joy, excitement, happiness, gratitude and contentment again but in my first 24 hours after the first bet, I could not feel them.