I am very concern about potentially becoming confuse, lost, careless, reckless, foolish when I am sick or stress in my senior years. I do not wish to bring harm and hurt to my family. I do not want to be a danger to them.
It is very sad and terrible to lose all your life saving or all the saving accumulated during your gamble free days in a relapse.
It is very depressing and scary to watch the total destruction when you are in the auto pilot mode.
I am putting in place additional accountability and commitments into my routine and recovery. I wanted to check and report my well-being to a physical group regularly.
I must do whatever it takes to keep others and myself safe and out of danger.
I need to love and protect others getting hurt and harm from me.
I see my senior years getting more challenging in this area.
It shall be done out of love, not out of selfish, self-centered and self-seeking ways