Hello Ludwig and welcome. I came here 20 days ago and I am 23 days gamble free since my last relapse. Before that I stayed 140 days gamble free. But this time I realized something different.
It is very hard to stay gf but very easy to relapse.
Don’t forget. You are not gamble free if you don’t play in a normal day or when you ran out of money. You are gamble free if you don’t play in the crisis time. When you crave so much but hold yourself away from it.
Don’t think about the replaceable things like money. If you have some debts, it’s not much important pay your debts. You can pay all your debts and start it again and make it even worse than before. You gotta focus on your recovery. Money always can be earned. But there are things that can’t be replaced. Family, friendships, self respect etc. Don’t lose these.
I’m hoping that you post here again. You are not alone in this. We are stronger than gambling and we can defeat it. It’s a lifelong battle but we can defeat it.
Being positive is important. Don’t let this get you down. We are still alive and we still have dreams. And as long we are breathing, there is hope.
Hope to see you again here.