A string of bad fortunes and events
1. Recently the weather everyday was 32 degrees, it was hot. My eczema flares up; I will feel stress and irritable.
2. I was tired easily lately and needed rest but my mind tells me to keep a perfect work attendance
3. Yesterday I was assisting someone at one location and something happen in another location at work, I cannot be in 2 places at the same time. My colleague was present but choose to do nothing.
4. I apply for leave from work in the following day to take a good break and rest, it was rejected, I was really shocked and surprised; I was angry and confused. In the end, it was an error in the system and it was rectified on time.
5. Today I notice that my nose is a little block and my throat has phlegm. I was feeling unwell. This explain why I was feeling vulnerable lately.
Frustration and anger could have taken over me, it could have triggered me and threaten my sobriety.
I was watching the situation and progress; on one hand I was moving closer towards the light. On the other hand, darkness did not want that to happen; I will be attack; darkness will try to make me fall, darkness wanted me to choose places and do things that is not good for me.
Man is fallible. Thoughts to relapse; choosing to sin, fall, slip and relapse in many ways crossed my mind yesterday. I do one thing at a time, went to one place at a time, I went to places and did things that keep me safe until tomorrow, I will be baptize on this day.
I visited the recovery drop-in center; it was sad to know that a young man who has shared in the same support group meeting has pass away from drug overdose.
Recovery is a serious matter for us.
Recovery save life!
Recovery saved our family and love ones from further hurt, harm and heartaches from us!
My deep thought:
Everyone is looking for love, hope, purpose and a good reason to carry on living.
If you cannot have that miracle you want; you can be that miracle for another person.