I wish I could give you a hug too. We are all the same. After very big 3 relapses I’m now in 59 days gamble-free. I gave my bank accounts to a close friend of mine. He controls everything on there. I still having urge to play but I can not because I don’t have my bank accounts. After my last relapse I thought I’ve tried everything to prevent myself from gambling but it wasn’t like that. Now I’m doing whatever I can do to prevent it and I’m trying to be happy. There is nothing to do for the past. Past is past you can not change it. But you can atleast try to change you future. We are stronger than this addiction and we will defeat it. Don’t give up. You still can change this. Maybe it will take 1 or 2 years but there are so much to live in the future. Just don’t rush. One thing at a time, one day at a time. Hope to find you better in your next post.
