Hi iamhere,
I’ve had an idea before. I swore to myself that at the moment I will have a significant amount of money that I have earned on my own, I’d hand it over to my father, at the same time telling him about my years-long gambling problem. Then, maybe after some time, I’d discuss it with my mother as well. That way I could show my parents that I have acquired the patience to earn and save, and not spend.
I don’t know if that’ll work at all. Right now, I cannot tell them anything as the consequences will be immediate and ultimate. I’ll lose my family relationship completely, once and for all. Not that it’s really good at the moment, however the risk to destroy it entirely is too big. As for that idea, it does not guarantee me anything either, but at least gives me some reasoning to explain the situation to them.
Or I can just spend it all on everyday snacks, buy myself a piece of clothes, shoes or a new backpack cause my current one is torn in many places and has a broken zipper. My glasses are also quite close to breaking, they are expensive though. The problem is that without them I effectively won’t be able to look at the computer screen from the distance greater than about 20cm which is sad.
Someone here before suggested me to buy some kind of psychology book. My father is a doctor, he’s a cardio surgeon, but he also studied psychology on his own. Maybe I should ask for his advice. My options are limited though, as I have already said. If I confess now, it’ll be all over sadly.