[asdfghost]

Hello, GT Forums!

It’s been a while since I posted. I wish that sounded more true than it really did. Yesterday and today I gambled away quite a big amount of money that I earned by myself, little by little. My life’s had miserable moments a lot of times before. Now’s one of those. I feel disgusted. Can I live like that? I don’t think so. But I don’t wanna die either. Hopeless, dumb, stupid idiot: that’s me.
I have no power to fight. There’s not even a tiny bit of hope left. I hate it. I hate myself. I hate this country. I hate the whole world. I hate my inability to protect myself and live happily alone. I will never be happy, I will never be safe. I will never live normally. I will die worthless and pathetic as I am.