[sjc1]

Hi Ax9722. Appreciate and totally relate to your post. You are in a hellish, lonely place. The lying is the worst element – it compounds every negative emotion that gambling evokes. But – you stopped for a while and you can stop again. Try to hold on to the positive experiences you had when you stopped. Take one day at a time. All we have is today/now focus on getting thru today. Be kind to yourself because you are not alone. We’ve been there too.