It has now been 6 weeks since I last gambled. I was able to pay off a good chunk of my credit card this month which was really nice. I still don’t have a very large available balance due to how much above my limit I was (I’ve got like $10 available or something on it) but it is progress, and in the next few months I should be able to pay it off!
This feels like the first real step in the right direction. I am very proud of it. Another week until I get paid again, but this month the majority of my left over income is going to be going towards my payday loans instead of my credit card. That way I can start to have that weight off my chest…
Since my last post, I let my girlfriend know the last time I gambled. She was disappointed I had been lying to her about it, but it was very comforting seeing that she is now going to help me through the journey. I haven’t told her about the payday loans yet as I am still ashamed I let it get that far. Once I have them paid off, I think I will come up with the courage to tell her the full truth.
On a sorta unrelated note to gambling, Valorant private beta came out. I was big into CSGO so this was a very exciting time for me. I got a couple accounts for the beta so I have been playing that a ton, keeping me distracted in this time that we can’t really go do other things to stay distracted… One thing I really love about Valorant, related to my gambling issue, is that the skins you purchase for your guns cannot be traded (or gambled) which was a big part of the reason I started, and continued to gamble. They are also not doing loot crates which is also amazing as it seems that no matter how hard I tried, whenever I would play CS I’d end up spending money on cases and skins.
I’ve bought some skins for Valorant already, but only for the above reasons mentioned that they cannot be traded so I Won’t be able to gamble them. They are also going to be refunding the skins bought as “coins” in game to buy skins once the full game comes out. And giving 20% more coins as a thanks for supporting the game in private beta. So really, it pays to buy them! haha
Anyways. Yeah. 6 weeks! About 2 more weeks until I’ve hit 2 months!
Stay safe everyone!