Day 6 still not gambled it had the urge to. The repercussions of my gambling throughout the years are now coming to haunt me. My Wife is going through such a hard time and I can’t do anything to make it better other than be there. I feel so bad for what I have done and she deserves better. I know it’s going to take years until u can fully make it right but not gambling for 6 days is a start. Part of me is thinking would she be better with out me because she can and deserves better than what I am. I can feel myself changing and becoming a better person and I know she loves me and truth me told I am stopping for her and my kids. I wish I could make things all better and take away her pain. Just have to take it a day at a time. Me feeling like this is my punishment and my repentance is to make this up to my family for the rest of my life. Lk
